how could i

these burning candles, and your smell on my skin
your confessions, and my barrier
what would you think if i told you
i'm not moved

how could i let this chance go by
you could be the one and yet
i can't breathe when you talk
i can't breathe when you look at me that way

how could i not tell you
how i want you to go and never turn back
how your presence suffocates me
how all i feel is nothing close to what you think

how could i break into an outrage of fear
fear of losing my space
fear of losing my time
fear of losing me

how could i let myself
let you believe
that you could be the one
that you were the one

how could i be this way
the way i never wanted to be
the way i despised..