a deeper red

A deeper red.. Stale, bitter
Fear of change, fear of fear
A dimensional hope
A constrained freedom
Air so light, I breathe heavy

Almost numb to these sharp pangs
It hurts.. Turning numb
Gone to a place so cold..
Still, it burns

Hanging by a thread..
So fine, it cuts..
A deeper red.. Stale, bitter
A deeper blue.....

your own

and you say; the load's a little heavy on your side.. a little too heavy and i can't do anything.. can't say anything.. cos the load's a little too heavy.. on your side and you say; i've heard it before.. how the load's heavy on your side.. what can i do but watch you sink from the load that's a little heavy.. on your side and you say; your 26 years worth of dreams.. your childlike fantasies of a white dress and a complete family portrait.. i think the load's heavy on your side.. your fantasies are a little heavy on my side and i say; haven't you heard me scream.. heard me cry from the load that's too heavy on my side.. 26 years worth of dreams they don't matter.. cos dreams don't weigh me down.. look and see.. look and see.. that the only load i have.. the load that's a little heavy.. the load that's a little too heavy.. the load that's too heavy on my side.. the load that's too heavy on your side.. the load i so humbly took on and still you killed me for.. are yours.. your own.

chains

the ghosts have come to redeem the past
when i won battles by mere ignorance
now the ghosts have come
and ignorance has become too old a trick

a lonely war
this war is my own against my demons
so the knife becomes a friend
a white flag by the slit of my wrists

and i wish to bleed
let the numbness replace this heavy pain

free me from the chains
of my living hell

star signs

am i worthy of ur time
am i worthy of ur love
the dawn breaks easy
but i've fallen to the ground

you read the star sign silly
i'm not a paragraph
i'm not a symbol, i'm me
you take too long to try

star signs and your mistake
my ashtray's filled to the brim
your thoughts and your beliefs
your thoughts and wrong beliefs

am i wasting my time
have i wasted all these time
your signals are fading..
your signals are fading

how could i

these burning candles, and your smell on my skin
your confessions, and my barrier
what would you think if i told you
i'm not moved

how could i let this chance go by
you could be the one and yet
i can't breathe when you talk
i can't breathe when you look at me that way

how could i not tell you
how i want you to go and never turn back
how your presence suffocates me
how all i feel is nothing close to what you think

how could i break into an outrage of fear
fear of losing my space
fear of losing my time
fear of losing me

how could i let myself
let you believe
that you could be the one
that you were the one

how could i be this way
the way i never wanted to be
the way i despised..

Fireball, fly, boy..

take what you can, we are crashing..

i'll cover you, even with a blanket of lies..

we'll turn to dust if we go down and ignite..

into a fireball..

so, fly, boy.. fly high

don't take me with you..

i'm drinking kerosene, i'm going down..

fly, boy, away from this fireball..

breaking your fall - for fana

let your guard down
only you know how weak you are inside
kickstart that weak beating of your cold heart

breaking your fall
will be the hardest thing i have to do
because once, a while ago,
i promised i'd fall with you

i'd neutralise your negativity
but breaking your fall
won't be easy
because i was there with you

and as hard and impossible
as it will be
breaking your fall is what i have to do

because i love you