Quiet noise

I hear empty echoes bounce off the walls in this little room,
And all the words, that I choose to believe,
They ring in my ears

While the rhythm settles in,
I am used to this silence,
If only you could try to understand

In my head there exists
A market full of noisy thoughts
Even if the world stops moving

I am a person and I need to feel
Even if it hurts,
I choose to feel

I won't be numbed by caring less
I will care, and I will feel
I am a person

I won't be numbed

Air

If I could..
Shut the world out,
if only for a minute..

If I could..
Fight the hands of time,
if only for a while..

If I could..
Breathe in air,
and hold my breath..

If I could..
Play the world,
in slow motion..

If I could..

two cities

and its you, i miss
in between cities, and streetlights

and its you, i feel
between laughters, and tears

its you, i need
between failures, and dreams

and beneath the yellow dim
of this cold, empty space

it has always been you,
to make me forget..

when to walk away

Hiding

Behind the walls where the portrait hangs
And beneath the murky waters of a picturesque view
In the shadows of my own masquerade
And under the bed where dreams, I dream

In the pages of my old faded diary
And between the lines of my poetry
Along with the rhythm of your songs
And away in a world no one else knows, I know

Hiding

And when I want you to notice
To see me,
I realise what i've done to myself

I've been hiding too long
And tonight, I've turned invisible

Sullen Street

once when the lights were bright
i thought i had it all
but i miss walking through Sullen Street
i feel complete

just a little bit of darkness
a little pain, some thorns to pierce
a little blood, a little fear
its who i am, its what i am

Sullen Street
don't fix the lights
don't try to fix me

Sullen Street
i need the pain
to stay alive

August

The days are dark in August
The nights are sullen
The wind howls to remind us
That August has come

And August
Oh August
Brings a heavy heart
For I
Cannot cry for August

But I feel his hands
Brush my hair
And I hear him sigh
With regret

And I know she cries
And I feel her tears
And I heard her say
She's not finished
Loving him

And when September comes
I will feel him
Going with the wind
And waving along
With the naked branches

For now, I'll mourn
I'll mourn for August
And I'll mourn
For her sadness

ride

did you sit on the moon
and fished for stars
on the fourth of july

while i waited
and the firecrackers
they exploded

and the clouds
they brought you here
but i'm blinded

sparks in my eyes
the lights
they're too bright

sparks in your eyes
the lights
they're too bright

and we held on
as the ride
made our heads spin

when its over
when the lights
have gone down

we're just us
i know what i want
but you

you don't have a clue
so i walk away
to a darker place

Run

Walk away
Though my tears have dried
Though my bruises are healed
I have scarred

Walk away
You won't be able to look me..
in the eyes
I don't recognise you

Run

Because the hurt you caused me
Stuck its ugly scars on my skin
And though I need you
I can't bear to hurt you with memories of how you hurt me

And those memories..
I don't have to say a word..
All you have to do is look me in the eye

Hello, me

walked through fire
i breathed in the smoke
i thought
i needed time away

i choked
cried out for help
i thought
i needed someone

and amidst the cry of war
i felt a sense of belonging
a quiet hush of calm

a quiet hush of calm

and a quiet hush of calm

and i knew
what i needed most was
me

its nice to be me again
hello,
me.

you

silver sparks
in your eyes tonight

blue mellow
in your heart

purple bruise
in your soul

and still..

i feel
a familiar pink
in my cheeks tonight

neon lights

been a while
since we watched the world go by
under bright neon lights

been a while
since we held on tight
while the lights took us for a ride

been a while
its been a long, long, while

little

crushing pretty petals
against a pale backdrop of midnight blue
i saw you under the moonlight

hush now, don't speak
your words, they play with my thoughts

your dreams, they have become
too ambitious for your actions

so go on crushing those petals
and one day you'll realise..

how little you've become..

down came the rain

an ode to my insatiable hopes
far away in what could be so picturesque
look up in the painted skies for what you desire
cry to the ground when its all just a pathetic dream

the swollen fists thats beaten up to too much failure
the heavy eyes thats cried out to too much disappointment
the shattered heart that has stopped pumping with more adrenaline
you're just a lifeless body stumbling,
waiting for a rebirth

an old man sits by the door,
wondering when he'd stop breathing
you think to yourself, why live and wait to die when you're still alive
then he answers, 'i haven't done anything in my life to cherish those moments,
and its too late now'.

so the rush and adrenaline comes back
so much to do, the clock's ticking
you fill yourself up with all the things to accomplish
'just don't fail this time', you say.

your fate has yet to be decided,
then,
down came the rain.

melancholy

numb to all beauty,
your heart once wrapped in clover
has turned into a callous portion
beating angst in the depths of ice
and what they see as beauty,
you perceive as fiction,
and you realize there's no turning back
as you walk along the dark, poignant road you choose to follow..

complicated script

the sun sets as you weep
into the night skies you beg
for mercy
time is precious, its moving fast
your heart bleeds the deepest red
but,
put your head high
not all love is lost
shine, my beautiful

linger

cold skin, your wreckless hair
show me beauty beneath
your coloured words

intertwined to the break of dawn
i still feel empty..