rhyme me silly

a deeper red

2011-09-12T01:13:00.000-07:00

A deeper red.. Stale, bitter
Fear of change, fear of fear
A dimensional hope
A constrained freedom
Air so light, I breathe heavy

Almost numb to these sharp pangs
It hurts.. Turning numb
Gone to a place so cold..
Still, it burns

Hanging by a thread..
So fine, it cuts..
A deeper red.. Stale, bitter
A deeper blue.....

your own

2011-04-13T05:12:00.000-07:00

and you say; the load's a little heavy on your side.. a little too heavy and i can't do anything.. can't say anything.. cos the load's a little too heavy.. on your side and you say; i've heard it before.. how the load's heavy on your side.. what can i do but watch you sink from the load that's a little heavy.. on your side and you say; your 26 years worth of dreams.. your childlike fantasies of a white dress and a complete family portrait.. i think the load's heavy on your side.. your fantasies are a little heavy on my side and i say; haven't you heard me scream.. heard me cry from the load that's too heavy on my side.. 26 years worth of dreams they don't matter.. cos dreams don't weigh me down.. look and see.. look and see.. that the only load i have.. the load that's a little heavy.. the load that's a little too heavy.. the load that's too heavy on my side.. the load that's too heavy on your side.. the load i so humbly took on and still you killed me for.. are yours.. your own.

chains

2010-03-27T12:46:00.000-07:00

the ghosts have come to redeem the past
when i won battles by mere ignorance
now the ghosts have come
and ignorance has become too old a trick

a lonely war
this war is my own against my demons
so the knife becomes a friend
a white flag by the slit of my wrists

and i wish to bleed
let the numbness replace this heavy pain

free me from the chains
of my living hell

star signs

2009-05-30T15:43:00.000-07:00

am i worthy of ur time
am i worthy of ur love
the dawn breaks easy
but i've fallen to the ground

you read the star sign silly
i'm not a paragraph
i'm not a symbol, i'm me
you take too long to try

star signs and your mistake
my ashtray's filled to the brim
your thoughts and your beliefs
your thoughts and wrong beliefs

am i wasting my time
have i wasted all these time
your signals are fading..
your signals are fading

how could i

2009-05-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

these burning candles, and your smell on my skin
your confessions, and my barrier
what would you think if i told you
i'm not moved

how could i let this chance go by
you could be the one and yet
i can't breathe when you talk
i can't breathe when you look at me that way

how could i not tell you
how i want you to go and never turn back
how your presence suffocates me
how all i feel is nothing close to what you think

how could i break into an outrage of fear
fear of losing my space
fear of losing my time
fear of losing me

how could i let myself
let you believe
that you could be the one
that you were the one

how could i be this way
the way i never wanted to be
the way i despised..

Fireball, fly, boy..

2009-03-29T10:49:00.000-07:00

take what you can, we are crashing..

i'll cover you, even with a blanket of lies..

we'll turn to dust if we go down and ignite..

into a fireball..

so, fly, boy.. fly high

don't take me with you..

i'm drinking kerosene, i'm going down..

fly, boy, away from this fireball..

breaking your fall - for fana

2009-02-08T11:21:00.000-08:00

let your guard down
only you know how weak you are inside
kickstart that weak beating of your cold heart

breaking your fall
will be the hardest thing i have to do
because once, a while ago,
i promised i'd fall with you

i'd neutralise your negativity
but breaking your fall
won't be easy
because i was there with you

and as hard and impossible
as it will be
breaking your fall is what i have to do

because i love you

Scarlet

2009-02-06T09:05:00.000-08:00

Don't you know that my heaven falls when you're gone
I see you in the scarlet skies of your own..
your own device

Lets take a walk down the aisle of never knowing
Its in your eyes, your perfect disguise, that I'm falling..
falling in too deep

And you take my hand,
While I breathe the air that you've frozen..

And you take my hand,
While I walk the steps that you chose to run..

Demons

2009-01-20T21:51:00.000-08:00

So you sit there waiting for someone to save you
Now the green light's going but you don't have a clue

The sunset screams a silent tune
And you hide in your little room

While the stars, waited for the moon

You say you want to be free but you don't want to be alone
And you scream Heaven Help Me

But your demons sing your song

Quiet noise

2008-11-21T10:37:00.000-08:00

I hear empty echoes bounce off the walls in this little room,
And all the words, that I choose to believe,
They ring in my ears

While the rhythm settles in,
I am used to this silence,
If only you could try to understand

In my head there exists
A market full of noisy thoughts
Even if the world stops moving

I am a person and I need to feel
Even if it hurts,
I choose to feel

I won't be numbed by caring less
I will care, and I will feel
I am a person

I won't be numbed

Air

2008-11-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

If I could..
Shut the world out,
if only for a minute..

If I could..
Fight the hands of time,
if only for a while..

If I could..
Breathe in air,
and hold my breath..

If I could..
Play the world,
in slow motion..

If I could..

two cities

2008-09-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

and its you, i miss
in between cities, and streetlights

and its you, i feel
between laughters, and tears

its you, i need
between failures, and dreams

and beneath the yellow dim
of this cold, empty space

it has always been you,
to make me forget..

when to walk away

Hiding

2008-08-26T10:13:00.000-07:00

Behind the walls where the portrait hangs
And beneath the murky waters of a picturesque view
In the shadows of my own masquerade
And under the bed where dreams, I dream

In the pages of my old faded diary
And between the lines of my poetry
Along with the rhythm of your songs
And away in a world no one else knows, I know

Hiding

And when I want you to notice
To see me,
I realise what i've done to myself

I've been hiding too long
And tonight, I've turned invisible

Sullen Street

2008-08-21T13:27:00.000-07:00

once when the lights were bright
i thought i had it all
but i miss walking through Sullen Street
i feel complete

just a little bit of darkness
a little pain, some thorns to pierce
a little blood, a little fear
its who i am, its what i am

Sullen Street
don't fix the lights
don't try to fix me

Sullen Street
i need the pain
to stay alive

August

2008-08-06T05:12:00.000-07:00

The days are dark in August
The nights are sullen
The wind howls to remind us
That August has come

And August
Oh August
Brings a heavy heart
For I
Cannot cry for August

But I feel his hands
Brush my hair
And I hear him sigh
With regret

And I know she cries
And I feel her tears
And I heard her say
She's not finished
Loving him

And when September comes
I will feel him
Going with the wind
And waving along
With the naked branches

For now, I'll mourn
I'll mourn for August
And I'll mourn
For her sadness

ride

2008-07-24T06:28:00.000-07:00

did you sit on the moon
and fished for stars
on the fourth of july

while i waited
and the firecrackers
they exploded

and the clouds
they brought you here
but i'm blinded

sparks in my eyes
the lights
they're too bright

sparks in your eyes
the lights
they're too bright

and we held on
as the ride
made our heads spin

when its over
when the lights
have gone down

we're just us
i know what i want
but you

you don't have a clue
so i walk away
to a darker place

Run

2008-07-19T05:36:00.000-07:00

Walk away
Though my tears have dried
Though my bruises are healed
I have scarred

Walk away
You won't be able to look me..
in the eyes
I don't recognise you

Run

Because the hurt you caused me
Stuck its ugly scars on my skin
And though I need you
I can't bear to hurt you with memories of how you hurt me

And those memories..
I don't have to say a word..
All you have to do is look me in the eye

Hello, me

2008-07-14T06:03:00.000-07:00

walked through fire
i breathed in the smoke
i thought
i needed time away

i choked
cried out for help
i thought
i needed someone

and amidst the cry of war
i felt a sense of belonging
a quiet hush of calm

a quiet hush of calm

and a quiet hush of calm

and i knew
what i needed most was
me

its nice to be me again
hello,
me.

you

2008-06-14T22:26:00.000-07:00

silver sparks
in your eyes tonight

blue mellow
in your heart

purple bruise
in your soul

and still..

i feel
a familiar pink
in my cheeks tonight

neon lights

2008-06-14T22:17:00.000-07:00

been a while
since we watched the world go by
under bright neon lights

been a while
since we held on tight
while the lights took us for a ride

been a while
its been a long, long, while

little

2008-05-31T06:08:00.000-07:00

crushing pretty petals
against a pale backdrop of midnight blue
i saw you under the moonlight

hush now, don't speak
your words, they play with my thoughts

your dreams, they have become
too ambitious for your actions

so go on crushing those petals
and one day you'll realise..

how little you've become..

down came the rain

2008-05-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

an ode to my insatiable hopes
far away in what could be so picturesque
look up in the painted skies for what you desire
cry to the ground when its all just a pathetic dream

the swollen fists thats beaten up to too much failure
the heavy eyes thats cried out to too much disappointment
the shattered heart that has stopped pumping with more adrenaline
you're just a lifeless body stumbling,
waiting for a rebirth

an old man sits by the door,
wondering when he'd stop breathing
you think to yourself, why live and wait to die when you're still alive
then he answers, 'i haven't done anything in my life to cherish those moments,
and its too late now'.

so the rush and adrenaline comes back
so much to do, the clock's ticking
you fill yourself up with all the things to accomplish
'just don't fail this time', you say.

your fate has yet to be decided,
then,
down came the rain.

melancholy

2008-05-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

numb to all beauty,
your heart once wrapped in clover
has turned into a callous portion
beating angst in the depths of ice
and what they see as beauty,
you perceive as fiction,
and you realize there's no turning back
as you walk along the dark, poignant road you choose to follow..

complicated script

2008-05-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

the sun sets as you weep
into the night skies you beg
for mercy
time is precious, its moving fast
your heart bleeds the deepest red
but,
put your head high
not all love is lost
shine, my beautiful

linger

2008-05-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

cold skin, your wreckless hair
show me beauty beneath
your coloured words

intertwined to the break of dawn
i still feel empty..